It's been a particularly long day today.  I woke up first thing this morning around 4:30 a.m. to a bad dream that I would never repeat.  It was disturbing enough to get me up for the night.  So I did the right thing for once and started studying the word and praying.  BUT, then I checked my bank account.  I found out that one of my parents bounced a check to me.  OUCH.  I studied and studied and prayed as much as I could.  I get so frustrated and my thoughts become garbled and I just have too many random thoughts to sit still and rest.  It's this sort of thing that happens all the time AND, that's where the bad neurotoxins come from.

What's good about this day is that I was able to approach this parent in a kind and loving manner.  I don't think I've ever been mean or short tempered with anyone in the past.  But I haven't always been willing to offer a way for them to catch up without just getting me the dollars immediately.  There's no reason to kick a person when they are down.  So I offered a payment plan to get her back on track.  That's love and since faith works by love, I'm hoping that I past this test for a change.  My daycare friends would tell me I did the wrong thing and that she'll never pay me right again because I gave her an inch.  But that kind of thinking has only gotten me a lot of self fulfilling prophecy.  I'm going to do things God's way.  If I expect people to treat me right and I act in love, then it will work out.

Thank you DR. Jesus.