Proverbs 19:21 Many are the plans in a man's heart, but it is the LORD's purpose that prevails.

I don't know why I was destined to suffer so much physically.  I'm not even sure exactly when it started... Maybe it started when I was born a little small, not wanting to eat and remained tiny and sickly for the first few years.  Or maybe it was in grade school when the weight piled on so fast that I gained 100 pounds in around 2-2.5 years.  Or maybe it started when I was only 14 years old and had gas pains so bad that I was doubled up with them.  I did not know it at the time, but I had what some would call irritable bowel syndrome.  From that day to about a year and a half ago, I would go days and up to a week without any bowel movement.  It was always a painful ordeal.  But eventually I'd have a 3-4 hour intense and painful night.  I would get relief..the kind that takes a few hours.  That's all I'll say about that.  Then it all started again.  I could count on the cycle to repeat for decades.  Of course, I tried changing my diet, eating all the fiber, taking the pills and potions, and even drinking the dieters tea...  My husband would be stuck in the bathroom for hours after one cup.  I could drink a whole box worth and get nothing, nadda, zip.  Anyhow...fast forward to my early 20's when I started having sinus infections and then ended up with a 10 year bladder infection problem.  I finally got relief through natural means.  That's a story in and of itself.  Things got so bad they thought I had cancer and I even had to use a catheter for a couple of months.  But my real point is that there has never been a time in my life where I was healthy.  I was never able to run, do a real set up, push up, or climb that rope in school.  I've never slept well and I've always been uncomfortable or in pain or both in some way.  There has to be a reason!  I'm determined to find out why.