Sometimes my life is a complete mystery...  I know that right thinking is needed because stress kills.  But everyone has stress.  None of us are immune to unexpected vet bills, cars that break down, taxes that take too much, utilities that go up, and little boys that scream when it's nap time and scream later if they don't nap.  All we can do is remember who we are to look to, put it all in perspective, and stay in the word.

I'm not sure what I've done differently or wrong today. But my symptoms are very pronounced.  I won't speak of them directly.  It's not good to do so.  I'll speak of them only when I am released and freed from their grip.

What I am doing right...  I've listened to a book by Joyce Meyer, cleaned the house, rented a movie for the kids, ignored my symptoms as much as possible.  I even jumped on the treadmill twice.  But I won't say for how long.  It's embarrassing!  We have to start someplace.  START AGAIN that is.  I also started my day praying.  That's the BEST thing we can do.



Psalm 30:2   O Lord my God, I cried to You and You have healed me.

Psalm 46:1 God is our refuge and strength, always ready to help in times of trouble.

Deuteronomy 4:7 What other nation is so great as to have their gods near them the way the LORD our God is near us whenever we pray to him?

So I took my cat in and sure enough, his bladder was completely blocked from emptying.  They have him now sedated and catheter sewed in place.  They will keep him for a couple of days and fix him up.  Now I have to work on making sure he doesn't get sick again.  I haven't figured out how to take all of God's promises for myself.  I don't even know if he means for these promises to be for our pets.  But one thing I know, my Lord is pleased to do good things for me.  He loves me and it makes him happy to make me happy.  I do believe that.  He's been too good to me to believe anything else.

It's not that I'm so in love with my pets.  I do love them.  But I'd be happy with less pets, less mess, less work that it takes to care for them, and less costs involved.  But my heart goes out to them and I feel bad and guilty for all the humans do to animals.  Collectively, we are still not getting enough animals fixed and there are simply too many.  People abuse them.  I figure that even if I can't give my pets everything and occasionally, I might even have to put one down because I run out of funds to treat expensive illnesses..  I'm still doing more for my animals than so many thousands of animals experience every day.

Putting my cat down..  That's not something I want to think about in a 4 year old cat that's always been healthy.  This poor cat doesn't like people much.  He's been scared since we had him and probably long before that.  I want him to get well so that we can keep giving him the best life we can.

Dear Lord, please heal my cat and please provide the funds to pay the vet bill.  TJNA

Every day around the world, people are healed against all odds.  On the flip side, people die unexpectedly all the time.  Some seem to sail through life with few illnesses and it would seem a high tolerance for pain.  Christians can not agree on just when God heals.  No matter what I think or feel at the moment, I always go back to one thing...  Jesus did not fail.  If he said he was healing someone, he healed them.  I recently heard someone tell me that Jesus suffered, so why shouldn't we?  But where in scripture did it say that Jesus lacked anything physically or that he was sick?  NO PLACE.  Jesus purposely gave up all earthly possessions in order to try the hearts of men.  That's what it was all about when he said that wherever he and his disciples went, the people were to take care of them for the days he was there.  If they did not, they were to shake the dust off their feet.  A complete and thorough reading of the scriptures would reveal that Jesus never lacked and he reminded his own disciples that their clothing and shoes never wore out in the 3 years they were with Jesus.  The gifts given to Jesus at birth were worth the equivalent to thousands and maybe even millions of dollars by today's standards.  Jesus ministry was well financed.  Why else would they have needed a treasurer?  It was also revealed in scripture that they gave money to the poor.  Jesus fed the poor, healed the poor, and the poor & rich a like opened their homes to Jesus.  If they didn't, they will pay for their  failures in eternity.

So...  my feet hurt, my ears ring, and I get very tired.  BUT, my sciatica is healed, I am more awake than I have been in years, I sleep better than I have in years, and I can sleep on my back for the first time in 15 or more years maybe.  I don't remember when it got so bad.  But I am at least 80% or more better than I was when I started this journey.

Today I am believing for my cat.  My cat has either an intestinal blockage, or a bladder infection.  He did pass urine this morning.  He has not had a bm.  He strains over the litter box.  So I am treating him for both and keeping him by himself so he's not sharing a box.  I'll do my part and I know that Jesus will do his.  I could take him to the vet I know.  But truthfully, it's taken me the whole year to reduce my massive debt by 3000.  At this rate, it will take me 12 years to get out of debt!  I don't want to let one vet bill set me back that far.  2 years ago some veterinarians charged me 1000 for 3 visits for my dog.  They wanted to keep me coming back and I figured out they would have gotten about 4000 per year out of me if I let them.  I learned how to treat him at home.  The word also promises that we can pray for wisdom.  I open my mind and heart to the Lord's instructions.

I declare today that my feet are strong, healthy, and well.  I declare that my plumbing bill is paid in the name of the Lord.

Last night I had a good night sleep.  I'm very grateful for that.  We did have to call a plumber today.  In the past, this would have been just a terrible thing to me and I would have fret over money.  But I know that God has always made a way for me.  He always will.  I am grateful today that it was only shower water and not raw sewage backing up.

I'm very pleased to say that I can lay on my back without being in pain and that it's not difficult to get from the bed to the bathroom.  I declare that pain has NO place in my body.

God has given  us another beautiful day.  70 degrees on December 3rd!  He is an AWESOME GOD!

I'm looking forward to doing some more reading this week, scripture, christian fiction, and I'm making the best use of time that I can.  It's not my time.  It's GOD's time.  But he wants me to be happy and well.  So resting the body and the mind is just as important as working with the kids.

We have Jet back today.  I'm hoping he can stay for several weeks or a few months at least :)  I also need to pray for Autumn's mom to find a place to live.

Listening to Kenneth Copeland about the fast key...

God is cleaning up our mouth and our thinking so that he can raise up the power of our words when we speak them.

He tells about the story of a water craft (like a water motorcycle).  There are 2 keys.  There's a fast key and a slow key.  They used to have governors on cars to keep the car from going too fast.

The slow key is designed to keep a person from killing himself or someone else.  God does the same for our mouth.  Our mouths can bring life and death.  We need to learn how to use them.

When Jesus spoke to the fig tree, the fig tree died.  We can do the same.  Jesus said we would.  But we have to learn how.

Sin can not stay in the presence of pure holiness.  This is why the Lord told Moses that he would pass by, but not to look on him.  Moses was not a born again man.  He could not handle the power of the Lord.

On the day of Pentecost, the fire of the holy spirit came on them and they absorbed it.

God wants to give us the fast key.  Calling things that be not as though they were...

I declare today that:

I am feeling awesome today...  I am well, healthy, vital, and strong.  I love all people that God puts into my path.  I love the Lord, I live and breath his word, I say what my father says, I do what my father does, Jesus is my Lord, my example, my teacher, my friend...

People quote that the truth sets us free...  But the better translation is that the truth makes us free.  I need to compare that on scripture text :)

Knowing the truth is about continuing in the word which will allow us to know the truth, and be as free as Jesus is.

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I've listened to parts of this message several times.  I understand what Kenneth is teaching.  I used to hate to hear him talk about our mouth and about how we say things like "pain in the butt", "pain in the neck", "I'm just sick to death", and the list goes on and on.  It felt so nit picky that he was trying to say that these things that just about everyone says is making us sick.  But try and stop!  Changing the words of my mouth has been the single most difficult think I've ever tried to do.  2 years into my new lifestyle and I'm still making a lot of mistakes with my mouth.  But I do feel a change is coming.  I KNOW that he's right.

It's a proven fact that animals lower our blood pressure.  I don't have a problem in that area.  But I love my babies.

I've been up since about 4:30 today.  It's been rather busy so far.  I started the laundry, took a shower, took the dog out, gave one of the dogs a bath, went to the store, made a good roasted tomato, veggie, fish dish, and I am sleepy.  But I refuse to allow myself to turn into mush just because we aren't real busy yet today child wise.  We have two boys here that are busy on the computer.  AJ is not here yet, but will be later.  Jack is supposed to come for a bit today.  But she has a habit of saying she needs me on the weekend and then not bringing him.

Listening to Kenneth Copeland...

4th chapter of Romans...  Abraham like God....  Like God has a double meaning...  Acting like him and talking him, and also before him as in acting like him in God's presence  We are supposed to act like Jesus.  That's what he said we would do that.  We should talk like Jesus and EXPECT to get the same results.

God has empowered our tongue with the power of the word of the Kingdom.    

Jesus said, "I only say what the father says, and I only do what the father does".

Never agree with the persecutor.  If we speak like the devil, we lose the word that God gives us.

If we really want to be a living sacrifice unto the Lord, we would eat well and avoid processed foods as much as possible.  I am convinced that all food is permissable some of the time.  But some food is definitely more Holy than others. 

This is tomatoes, broccoli, and mushrooms, tossed with oil, spices, garlic paste, and cilantro paste, and placed over the top of fish.  Then it's baked at 385 for about 40 minutes.  I like mine almost crispy or dark on some edges.

Gloria Copeland always says that the word of God is like medicine to us.  She says it because God said it first.

Proverbs 4:20-22

My son, pay attention to what I say; listen closely to my words. Do not let them out of your sight, keep them within your heart; for they are life to those who find them and health to a man's whole body.

Proverbs 8:35 For whoever finds me finds life and receives favor from the LORD.

Proverbs 12:18 Reckless words pierce like a sword, but the tongue of the wise brings healing.

Proverbs 16:24 Pleasant words are a honeycomb, sweet to the soul and healing to the bones.


The word of God also says that we can have divine health when we live the way that God instructs us to live.

Proverbs 3:7 & 8

Do not be wise in your own eyes; fear the Lord and shun evil.  This will bring health to your body and nourishment to your bones.

The words of our mouth will also bring life or tear it down.

Proverbs 15:4 The tongue that brings healing is a tree of life, but a deceitful tongue crushes the spirit.